Suddenly I remember
I gasp for air
What am I?
No, I can’t do this
I don’t want this
It hurts
There is not enough time
I will never be ok anymore
It’s too painful and too scary to know
Help me

For now, I go back down
Back into the smaller, more comprehensible known
Protected by distraction, by ignorance
But eventually, I will need to leap into the expanded known
Trust that I can take it
Allow everything in