An illuminating clarity of darkness
In the evening, my focus shifts. It’s as if the darkness shines its own specific light on our …
Why do I let in existential awareness?
With existential awareness comes anxiety and grief. So why not just ignore it? I am convinced that e…
The person in the being (or the being in the person?)
My person and my being On the one hand there is the person that is living this life, trying to make …
(Not) being and (not) having
The time I have, the life and the love that I feel, it means so much to me but I don’t really have i…
When the truth about being comes barging in
Suddenly I remember I gasp for airWhat am I? No, I can’t do this I don’t want this It hurts There is…
Why does everyone else seem to be just fine?
It feels like I am the only one who has this much trouble with being, just being… for now, and event…
Almost losing one sense of reality in order to find a new, truer, sense of reality
I can feel it coming before it actually hits me. My chest seems to tighten and my throat feels like …
Lonely waves of truth
I don’t know what is worse actually, the questions or the answers? I guess the answers are painful a…
Shadows and dark clouds
This little creature is the light Deserving only vibrant sparks To continue floating, feeling proud …
(Not endlessly) saying yes, choosing to be, and crumbling under the weight of what it actually means
Everything would have been here, even if I never came to life. The stars, the earth, the mountains, …
Questions about life and death – a short survey
I’ve been asking myself questions about a lot of things but especially about life and death. I…
What do I know?
The way you look may say something about you or it may not,It may say something about a moment in yo…
A light goes on
From 2017 I drive Imagine hitting a tree Missing a turn Pulling the steering wheel Straight into the…
In the dark
From 2017 I try to return to a calmer state of mind The tension is frightening All my senses are in …